I’m 38 years old and I think I like my life

Last Thursday night I had an epiphany of sorts. I like my life.

I know this may sound silly or dumb or obvious, but laying in bed that night it just hit me. I like my life. Actually, I kinda love it.

I may have days when I’m lonely and I wonder how I ended up 38 years old and alone. I may have days when I want to quit my job. I may have days where I want to run away. And I may have days where I just wonder “WHY?!”

But then I have days like today. Days when I realize that I’m okay with how things are. When I like that I have my own house and my own space. That I don’t have to live by anyone else’s rules. That I can paint the walls any color I like, have wine and cheese for dinner, and potentially fuck up my bathroom vanity trying to paint it white (which I didn’t BTW). Days when I thank God for the day that my ex-husband told me he wanted a divorce. It may have taken me close to 9 years to realize it, but it quite possibly could have been the best thing to happen to me.

I still have days when something goes wrong and I get angry that there isn’t someone here to help me. Or times when I have a bad day and just wish there was someone waiting to give me a hug. Or those times when I look at everyone else’s lives and wonder why I can’t have that. And some times I even have days when I wonder how certain people have relationships and I don’t.

I’m single, I live alone, and I have no kids. But that is okay. I have a job that gives me the opportunity to do things I wasn’t able to before. I own my own house and car. I write a blog that has allowed me to do some pretty bad ass stuff. I have the worlds most AMAZING best friend. I have a beautiful niece who I love more than I thought possible. I have fantastic parents and fabulous friends. I’ve traveled more in the last 5 years that the 33 years before that. I’ve run 18 half marathons and countless other races. I’ve had SO MANY adventures.

So even though my life might not have all the things I thought it would, it has so many things I NEVER thought possible. I live MY life by MY rules. It may not be perfect, it may not be the life I would have originally chosen for myself, but it is MY life and I think I like it.

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  1. Stephanie says:

    Love this! I’m going through my quarter-life crisis right now and it’s inspiring to see you (and others) own your life with pride – even if it’s different and not what you expected. We have to remind ourselves that there isn’t a rule book and that’s part of the beauty of life. Keep doing you, girl! ๐Ÿ™‚

  2. Haley says:

    Iโ€™m happy as hell that your life and my life got thrown together in our own little crazy way . Youโ€™re amazing and I love that we are friends. Even though we donโ€™t see each other often, you are always in my thoughts and Iโ€™m so proud to call you my best damn friend. Even if you do have more points than me now. ๐Ÿ˜ž

    • Meghan says:

      Hell woman, way to make a girl all weepy! Ditto to all that. ๐Ÿ’› I’m so glad you are part of my life. Even if I have more points than you ๐Ÿ˜‰

  3. Cindy Groh says:

    The short version of this comment is I loved reading your post. Have a great night.
    What an amazingly uplifting blog post. Thank you for sharing your humbling and honest views on the challenges you’ve gone through and have had to face when maybe all of them were out of your control allowing the morals and ethics you hold dearly, crumbled before you.
    BUT you picked yourself up and I am inspired by your amazing courageous acts of faith to find happiness. The kind and happy tone in your post really invites the readers in to hopefully follow in your footsteps to “Have courage and be kind”, which will always be my favorite movie line because so little words can make a person climb higher and make a difference in someone’s life.
    Thanks for “listening”. I always have lots of thoughts but I find when I’m typing them out, the meaning gets lost or taken the wrong way.
    The short version of this comment is I loved reading your post. Have a great night.

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