Waiting sucks! I was going to type stinks, but it doesn’t stink. It sucks.
I’ve been doing a lot of waiting the last week and a half and it is driving me nuts. Things started out looking so positive and I’ve just been waiting for the other shoe to drop. I guess the ‘dating’ shoe did drop… and it hit me right in the head. So if one shoe DID drop, then it is only a matter of time for the other one right?
Yes yes, I know what you are thinking. Meghan, why are you being so vague?! Well, because at the moment I have to. Until the waiting is over (grrr) I kinda have to keep waiting I’m waiting FOR a secret. A few people are in the know and that is about all that is keeping me from going insane. Every time a new email message pops up or my phone rings I get all worked up. I tried turning the ringer off on my phone, but that just causes me to grab my phone every ten minutes thinking that I missed a call.
I think even the dog knows that something is up. She seems to be pacing around the apartment a lot more than usual the last few days. Does she know something I don’t? Dogs do seem to have a sixth sense about things. I sure hope that she is sensing something good.
Monday I ran to try and stop thinking about the waiting. It definitely worked and put me in a better mood. But last night I just didn’t want to. I didn’t want to do anything. In fact, around 7:00 last night I seriously thought about just giving up and going to bed. But (thankfully?) I can’t really sleep when it is light out.
Man waiting sucks.