This past week has been a doozy. I guess everything just finally caught up to me. Things are kind of at a standstill right now. Since we are under the stay-at-home order the only other thing that could happen is for things to get better and they lift it. Right? I refuse to believe that things will get WORSE than that for us here in Florida. If things are finally starting to level out in NY, where things were BAD, then I think we might be okay.
Wednesday my niece turned one and I wasn’t there. I HATED it. I was supposed to fly up on Friday for the weekend to celebrate her 1st birthday and Easter, but of course that didn’t happen. Thankfully I got to see lots of pictures from their family celebration, but it just wasn’t the same. Hopefully we will all get a chance to celebrate together over the summer.
I had a very hard time getting motivated this past week. Motivated to work, work-out, cook, or even do fun projects around the house. I just didn’t want to do anything. I wasn’t sleeping well, so that wasn’t helping either. But then of course, when I gave myself a break and just “did nothing” then I’d start to feel bad about that. Can’t a girl get a break? It was just frustrating.
I think it all really started when I decided to do some pressure washing outside. I’m one of those people that really hates cleaning, but once things are clean it makes me SO happy. So I got out the pressure washer, got the car out of the carport, blew all the leaves out, moved all the things that I needed to move, and I was ready to go. Except I couldn’t get the spray nossle off my hose… and ya kinda need a water source for the pressure washing. SERIOUSLY?! I tried everything. I tried pliers, I tried brute force, and I even tried some cooking spray to loosen it. Nope. So I put everything back and called it a day. I should have known the week wouldn’t get much better.
Then on Sunday I finally felt like maybe I was coming out of the fog! I decided to break out the sewing machine and make myself a mask for wearing to the grocery store and such. I printed out the instructions, got out my supplies, and even cut out the pieces. But from there things just kept going downhill. My sewing machine was acting up and no matter what I tried I couldn’t fix it. Then I figured I would go online and see if I could find some help. But when I went to power up my computer it had a mind of its own and went a little crazy. I ended up having to just put everything down and walk away so that I didn’t have a complete meltdown. In the end I got nothing done other than laying on the couch watching tv. It stunk.
I also miss my parents. It has been a month now since I’ve seen them. I’ve been to the store a couple of times and I just can’t risk bringing something over to them. I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if they got sick and there was any chance it was my fault. Thankfully they are together and taking care of each other and no one has landed on the news for killing the other. Small miracles I guess. Lol. I was doing fine with not seeing them because I knew it was the safest choice, but then my momma sent me a text yesterday:
“Wish you were here. Miss you.”
How can six little words hit you so hard? She totally understands why I’m not there, but it still stinks. I really wanted to just pack a bag and run over there. But I didn’t.
I don’t mean to complain because I know that things could be SO much worse. But sometimes you just get down ya know? And this was one of those weeks. And since I don’t want to leave things on a sour note, here are 3 things I’m thankful for.
- No one in my family has gotten sick. My parents are over 65 and both have health issues that put them more at risk.
- I have a job that I can do from home. Even though being self-employed during all this is TERRIFYING, at least I still have work and can still pay the bills.
- Kindle books! My local library has been closed since mid-March and I didn’t get a chance to pick up the books I had on hold before they closed. Thankfully my mom is in my Amazon household and I have access to her Kindle books. All 163 of them 🙂
Monday I was determined to get the week off to a good start. I did some work, did some yoga, had lunch, read outside for a bit, and did some more work. It was a semi-productive day AND I ended up getting a good nights sleep. Sounds like a positive start to the week?
So friends, how are you doing during all this craziness?