I was about to write a post about how frustrated I am with things in my life at the moment…
Like how I’m stuck at work on a Saturday night, instead of watching the Gator game with my friends. How I was SUPPOSED to find out if I got this rental I wanted today… only to be told to give him until Tuesday. How I’m in pain this weekend and getting things done is close to impossible. How I feel dumb packing when I can’t even get a straight answer about whether or not I’m actually going to be able to move somewhere.
But then I realized I just did an “I’m frustrated” post the other day. Like 2 days ago.
Frustration is hard to deal with. People always tell you to “don’t just sit there, do something about it!” but there is only so much that you personally can do about certain situations. Yes I can continue looking for a place to live, but I can’t MAKE the property manager make his decision any quicker. I am going to physical therapy 2 days a week and doing my exercises everyday… but I can’t MAKE my body get better any quicker than it wants to.
Even though sometimes it may not seem like it, I REALLY hate complaining about things. But sometimes when I get this frustrated the only thing I can do is write. Sometimes it is in my journal and sometimes, like when I’m stuck at work, it is here.
I tend to get too excited about things sometimes. Or put all my eggs in one basket. When things went well at the rental property yesterday and it looked as though I was the first one to get my application in, the wheels just started turning. I have a lot that needs to happen before my lease is up on November 2nd so I started to plan. Okay… I need to pack, I need to figure out when I can move in and when I will ACTUALLY move in, I need to get my mom over to see the place so that I can figure out how to furnish the place, I need to figure out home much money I’m going to spend and when. It is a long list so when I felt that I could actually move forward with figuring things out I did. And then when I found out this afternoon that I wouldn’t know for sure about the rental until Tuesday I just felt… like the other shoe had dropped. Another 3 days doesn’t sound like a long time, but when rentals are being snatched up the very day they are listed you can’t really afford to wait around and see what happens.
Even if I did continue to look for other properties, it costs money anytime you fill out a rental application. So I don’t really want to do that again just to turn around on Tuesday and find out that I got this place. But do I want to just sit here for 3 days and potentially miss out on another place? Can you see why this is all so frustrating?
So for now, I’m going to try not to think about it (HA HA HA HA HA) and watch the Gator game until I can go home. Tomorrow is another day and hopefully I’ll feel a little better about things.